> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > .. he idea of
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > helping slave boss
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > slave boss has a
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > rainbow problem in
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > his flower garden.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > the problem is that
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > psychedelic colors
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > are on not just the
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > petals of
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > his flowers, but also
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > his own skin
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > slave boss [traveling
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > landscape with torture
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > victim double agent]:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "why do you let me h--"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > slave boss pauses and
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > rethinks his expression
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > agent:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > [here we're considering
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > if harm could be reduced
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > in the pattern
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > without worsening the
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > power dynamics
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > agent has a problem that
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > everybody he knows is
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > in poverty and has
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > multiple medical problems
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > unseen before by science
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > so in a way both parties
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > win, in that they are
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > casting their successes
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > as reducing the behaviors
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > of the other
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent's
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > joy comes from not having to
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > choose to
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > hurt people with part of his
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > brain
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > third party: "oh no the
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > situation is not uncommon"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > slave boss looks at third party
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > and torture victim double agent
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent:
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "although slave boss loves me
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > as his most
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > doting devotee, he wants me to
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > leave him for a little time
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > now."
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > slave boss [with torture victim
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > double agent apart, to third party
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > with camera]: "the word 'now'--
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > slave boss, third party with camera
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > (who also visited torture victim
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > double agent), and torture victim
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > double agent are all three apart
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > slave boss is running after third
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > party with camera. his plan: to say
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > that torture victim double agent
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > plans his murder and request
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > protection
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent is chatting
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > up third party with camera.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > like slave boss, he had also decided to
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > run after third party with
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > camera, but was nearer from being engaged
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > last
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > when slave boss appears on the horizon,
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent is
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > visibly struck with intense terror for
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > his life
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent is clutching a
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > leg of third party with
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > camera, staring at slave boss with eyes as
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > wide as saucers as if
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > nothing in the world matters, muscles
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > tensed up, shaking violently
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > oops sent without content
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > slave boss is talking to a different third party
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > slave boss: "i really don't have any ability to
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > love; this is what my
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > therapist says"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent jumps in. "slave
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > boss! you know how to love!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > slave boss looks at torture victim double agent
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > furiously
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent: "your father tried
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > to rape the love out
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > of you but you care! you value things! there's
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > a human being under
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > there!"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > slave boss expresses subtle fury
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent picks up one of slave
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > boss's cigars then
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > looks at and it drops it on the floor in fear
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent looks at second third
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > party
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent: "long ago slave boss
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > was forced into
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > organized crime and had to pray to somebody who
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > always told him to
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > fuck a blender, and really honestly believe that
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > this was what was
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > good and right to do"
> > > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > slave boss: "i think that torture victim double
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > agent would like me to
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > leave now." slave boss looks at second third party.
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > "however, i would
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > like to know if you can help."
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > first third party comes into the room briefly
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > second third party: "it sounds like when you would
> > > > > > > > > > > > > like torture victim
> > > > > > > > > > > > > double agent to leave, he leaves, but when he would
> > > > > > > > > > > > > like you to, you
> > > > > > > > > > > > > don't? is this correct?"
> > > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > > notes are being taken
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > third third party: "we are interested in helping the
> > > > > > > > > > > > victims here."
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > {{{{
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > there is sadly a situation in america where people who
> > > > > > > > > > > > can clearly
> > > > > > > > > > > > explain being victims are the only people who are
> > > > > > > > > > > > generally helped.
> > > > > > > > > > > > sometimes if a third party can clearly explain somebody
> > > > > > > > > > > > is a victim,
> > > > > > > > > > > > and then consent to being helped, then they are helped.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > sadly this leaves out almost everybody from aid. but it
> > > > > > > > > > > > does keep the
> > > > > > > > > > > > set of people aided to a workable number and focuses on
> > > > > > > > > > > > people capable
> > > > > > > > > > > > of adding clear useful information, which is helpful.
> > > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > > i do not work in these things, these are just my
> > > > > > > > > > > > observations.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > i guess we can derive that the prison system is used by slave
> > > > > > > boss as
> > > > > > > a way to protect himself from something very scary by restraining
> > > > > > > people who might get in his way and sending blame away from
> > > > > > > himself by
> > > > > > > supporting it
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > it's confusing. there are of course many places that support
> > > > > > > focused
> > > > > > > punishment; i'm in the minority having been exposed to this being
> > > > > > > undesired as a larger thing, although many people question
> > > > > > > punishment
> > > > > > > in general when not taught otherwise. [one of the challenges
> > > > > > > seems to
> > > > > > > be laws; no longer having a norm of productive debate we set laws
> > > > > > > that
> > > > > > > leave people out
> > > > > >
> > > > > > it's sad because christianity is a huge punishment-oriented religion
> > > > > > that has actually helped people in very great need (most successful
> > > > > > antitrafficking groups appear to be christian); with all these valid
> > > > > > people expressing meaning of assassination of jesus, it's not likely
> > > > > > to be right to not have punishment as an approach; we need it to
> > > > > > understand it being used in the past (have not read bible myself so
> > > > > > hard to say much here)
> > > > >
> > > > > but these people definitely want to punish bad things not good things
> > > >
> > > > it's not my space to analyze that as i'm not experienced in being
> > > > christian.
> > > >
> > > > but i think the space of caring feeling relation with diverse groups
> > > > would open that.
> > > >
> > > > and we also find huge marketing and influence spaces
> > >
> > > i suspect its our lack of productive debate and communication across
> > > differences, combined with heavy influence, that makes situations like
> > > that seem difficult rather than simple
> >
> > now, media is huge. people get in media trances and all.
> >
> > but a lot of that influence is not just media, a lot of it is more
> > like the influence over tvda. people are in situations that involve
> > coercion to not reveal them.
>
> [[[i haven't voted since trump's first election oops]]]
[[[if i do vote again soon, and it's for a national candidate, it will
likely be because some part of me is telling me i have to, whether
it's one part or the other, rather than an informed feeling choice of
my own, until i have a _lot_ of therapy and recovery
>
> >
> > >
> > > >
> > > > >
> > > > > >
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > > in the fictional situation, torture victim double agent
> > > > > > > > > > > is able to
> > > > > > > > > > > clearly _demonstrate_ that he needs help, by the nature
> > > > > > > > > > > of his coping
> > > > > > > > > > > strategy, in an obscure and occasional way. this is
> > > > > > > > > > > slowly bringing
> > > > > > > > > > > him help.
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > slave boss: "you gotta understand. so many people ... like
> > > > > > > > > > me ... have
> > > > > > > > > > been killed by people like ... him."
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > camera present
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > third party: "would you save my life if i were in danger?"
> > > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > > slave boss: "fuck no!" slave boss puts hand over mouth
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent: "slave boss has saved my life
> > > > > > > > > over and
> > > > > > > > > over and ov--
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > torture victim double agent: "the situation here is not
> > > > > > > > complicated,
> > > > > > > > everybody's just scared of it going in some poor way."
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > torture victim double agent: "slave boss is scared because he
> > > > > > > > lives in
> > > > > > > > fear. i'm scared because i live in fear. you guys are confused
> > > > > > > > and are
> > > > > > > > going to make a poor decision because we all speak nonverbal
> > > > > > > > languages
> > > > > > > > and only use english to manipulate people."
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > torture victim double agent: "slave boss is very dangerous and
> > > > > > > > should
> > > > > > > > be restrained without being harmed. he and both need recovery.
> > > > > > > > i don't
> > > > > > > > fully understand the recovery he needs."
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > torture victim double agent: "_but_ the whole world is corrupt
> > > > > > > > and
> > > > > > > > everybody is acting on that, spreading horrible things that
> > > > > > > > slave
> > > > > > > > thinks protect him to take advantage of, actually worsening his
> > > > > > > > situation more and more producing more confusions like me."
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > torture victim double agent: "so the camera is helpful because i
> > > > > > > > forget everything i'm saying the moment after i say it unless i
> > > > > > > > think
> > > > > > > > there's some record"
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > torture victim double agent: "and slave boss is the same way,
> > > > > > > > he just
> > > > > > > > has good habits for rapin' people successfully that he learned
> > > > > > > > from
> > > > > > > > his dad"
