The morning he passed on I laid down on the couch for a bit to get a few
hours of sleep. I had a dream of him waiting in a line and holding a
teddy bear that I had gotten him for his birthday and I was standing in
another line across the way watching. Then I woke up and went in to
check on him. Oh me my dear friend was not there any more. He had gotten
to where he didn't want to attempt to even get out of bed. His last time
at the hospital they set up hospice to come to our house as to keep him
from having to go back and forth to the hospital. Again I know he is not
in any discomfort now but I will be very very selfish and say I still
want him here with me.
On 4/29/2020 11:11 AM, Paul Stenquist wrote:
I think the signs you will experience will be subtle and general and will
encourage you to pursue a brighter future. My wife died as I held her hand
after 44 years of marriage. I was crushed at the thought of losing her but
relieved that her pain and suffering had come to an end. I think her spiritual
presence guides my actions. Of course after so many years, her psyche is part
of mine. By moving forward I am carrying on for both of us.
On Apr 29, 2020, at 11:51 AM, Jeffery Johnson | Photo Captures by Jeffery
<[email protected]> wrote:
Thanks Paul. I was up until 6 this morning and laid down for a few hours. We
were together for 30 years. I am still talking to him even though he isn't
physically here and either I am not noticing the signs he is sending but as he
laid in non-responsive in his final days I asked him to send me signs.
On 4/29/2020 10:40 AM, Paul Stenquist wrote:
So sorry for your loss. I lost my partner five years ago, and I understand the
traumatic decisions that follow such a tragedy. I believe that thehe “where do
I go from here” questions eventually work themselves out. And while nothing can
replace a beloved partner, there is always a new path somewhere on the horizon.
Stay strong and carry on!
On 29/04/2020 06:58, Jeffery Johnson | Photo Captures by Jeffery wrote:
Tried to go to bed but tossed and turned as I have a lot on my mind. For the
past week or so been going through stuff. I am packing up what I will be taking
and placing into storage. I at times have to stop cause something will bring
back a memory and even if it is a happy one I start crying. It feels like it
was just yesterday I was packing up our stuff from a home we were in for 22
years for the move down here and then unpacking and getting our new home
settled. Just wish we could reverse 2020 and choose a different 2020. I will be
moving in with my brother and his wife for a bit until I get back on my feet
again. I am hoping I can afford a small to medium sized home to buy instead of
renting as I don't want to deal with a chance the rent goes up. Maybe I will be
able to get out with my camera more than I have for several months. Still
stressing over monies and still miss my late partner every single day.
Well I have rambled on long enough... Thanks for reading ...
Jeffery
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