Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many wrote: > > guilty jaywalker: "how do i know how to hold having jaywalked, does it > > mean i am evil?" > > jaywalking kid: "no, you're not evil for jaywalking. you're badass!" > > jaywalker: "but what i have to talk to a judge because of it!" > > jaywalking kid: "ummm" > > jaywalker: "I know it means I'm evil. I have to go and whip myself > > like torture victim double agent does." > > jaywalking kid: "no. does it mean that? should i be whipping myself?" > > policeman: "no. we need you to either not jaywalk, or be willing to > > accept a small fine if you are caught doing so on one of my bad days." > > recover group > > experimentee: "traffick boss would have the torturers tell us that > there was good or evil." > > experimentee: "in order to try to control us, he would say that some > people were good, and some people were evil, and the only way to be > good was to do what he said." > > experimentee: "he was lying." experimentee looks at each person. "you > are not evil. you have never been evil. you are inherently good people > and you need to remember this always."
jaywalker: "i was told i was jaywalking when i was telling the cars who was boss" experimentee: "good for you not letting those cars push you around!" jaywalker: "and i had flashbacks to torture and being so ashamed, and they wouldn't go away." experimentee looks empathically and caringly at jaywalker, as if jaywalker's flashbacks were breaking experimentee's heart jaywalker: "and i realized i wasn't really sure what guilt was. i just knew about being tortured and ashamed." jaywalker: "but the police and the judge said they didn't want to torture me."
