>From a blog on Desiboys, available at URL: http://www.desiboys.in/profiles/blogs/i-ve-decided-not-to-tell-my-parents-about-rishabh-my-partner
I’ve decided not to tell my parents about Rishabh, my partner Posted by zoheb khan <http://www.desiboys.in/profile/zohebkhan> on September 13, 2011 at 4:14pm I am not gutsy as you guys are, at least most of you guys online and I wouldn’t want to disclose my sexual identity to my folks around, and if they ask me who is Rishabh, I would introduce him as a friend from work. I don’t know how they would take it, or would they survive the shock. I feel so cursed being born gay and I have to lead this double standard life. Last year my best friend came out to his family and his parents disowned him. A year later even his boyfriend left him to get married to another woman, now the only thing he has in his life is his sexual fun. He sleeps with men as and when he feels like and is happy about it. I don’t sleep around like the way he does, but I don’t want to face the same grueling ways he went through. Our community doesn’t believe in gays and calls them losers. I don’t want to be tagged one and certainly don’t want my community back home to call me “Na Mard”. My parents haven’t yet forced me to think about marriage or settling down, as long as they see me everyday and I give the male folks the daily business statistics, they have no problem allowing me to have fun in life the way I want to. So where is the need for me to tell my folks that I am gay, why should i? I am proud being gay and in the closet. Tomorrow if I have to get married, I would do it, and yet lead a silent life of meeting men and am sure Rishabh would understand. I may open up to my would be wife, if I feel she will understand and ask her to empathize with what I am going through as well, am sure she would. If I ever have to tell my folks that I am gay and Rishabh is my partner, I would be killed, in our community “honor killings” is no big deal and I certainly love my life. Every night I pray to God almighty and ask him to take me away from this world soon enough, because honestly I fake my smile and pretend to be who I am not. I don’t even get a kick out of passing lewd comments at women when I walk down the streets with my straight guy friends. I hate it when I see Bobby Darling and the way he behaves, he certainly is not the icon for the gay community and he brings me shame, sometimes I wonder if I am a transvestite like him, but no am not. I don’t financial worries or even dating woes, I am well endowed on the wallet and the looks as well. I can have whichever guy I want and whenever I want, not at my place though, but I make arrangements and no one has to know about it. now tell me guys, if you were in my place and with situations like mine, wouldn’t you rather stay in the closet and enjoy being gay, without you having to open your mouth and confess to your parents about it!
