So you want the dirt on who has a casting couch, and who is fucking whom off camera? Knowing the sexual political alliances could be the secret to success. As a new girl, it is a no-brainer, show up and get filmed. But I’m not exactly new anymore, I’m looking to make my mark in features but I still don’t know the rules. I’m not against furthering my career with sexual favors, I’m a porn star damn it; sex IS my career. I just wish that it were a simple thing, part of the negotiation. "I need someone for such and such, it pays standard but I want a blow job when you pick up your check". That I could deal with, knowing exactly what is expected, no misinterpretation, no problems.
Instead there is constant innuendo and coyness, initiated by the men. They can direct you through the most sexually graphic actions, but shy away from anything more than a sheepishly delivered compliment. (I actually find the shyness cute, but I’m not a mind reader). Talent on the other hand never beat around the bush; they offer to beat the bush directly. My first such industry encounter was with Dave Cummings. Dave shot my fourth boy-girl scene, afterwards he and Hamilton split me every which way conceivable. I not only experienced my first DPs but we fucked until the wells ran dry, then again in the morning. Dave in turn has always spoken very highly of us and been great PR.
I would like to be completely free to bang whomever I wanted, whenever the urge struck me. I like sex and I enjoy sharing myself with my friends. However non-talent liaisons can be harmful, as experience has taught me. I once blew a friend as we watched his extensive video collection; but now, unable to remain impartial, this reviewer skips over my scenes entirely. And worse yet was an encounter following my first feature performance. I was awe stuck and the director’s "right-hand man" lavished me with attention from first sight. He called almost daily and visited often to discuss "his discovery" and how projects he was putting together would give me good career exposure. Yea, I fell for the age old, "I’ll make you a star, baby". I was naive and convinced he had genuine interest in me, I counted him among my friends and eventually fucked him. Afterwards, one by one opportunities passed; he even convinced the director he works for that I was unavailable. Which brings me to the conclusion that just knowing this snake has been detrimental to my career, and I have vowed to avoid dealing with others of his kind like the plague. The only thing he ever truly had any interest in hooking me up with was escorting, (maybe there is something in the recent rise in the number of porn star escorts).
Just what makes a porn star nowadays? Can’t I just be a performer who enjoys sex; must I be expected to drop for anyone waving a few bucks in my direction? And if I am to be as sexually liberal as I want to be, should it reduce my value in the eyes of those who attain that which they seek? Are these men so insecure that actually scoring with a girl that they pine after makes her less valuable? Confused by all these questions, it’s no wonder I seek the direct approach, but even then….
There is a producer I’m quite fond of who always flirts with the girls. Flirting onset really helps set the mood. Anyway, I like him because he is a take no bullshit, all business type of guy. As such, despite his desire for a no-string attached blowjob, he never mixes business with pleasure. Such a waste since pleasure is my business. But even I have missed opportunity; At AEE a very attractive director invited me to a private party. My eagerness to attend turned to nausea when the stench of cigars, made me aware of the camel coated presence of the very person that was responsible for my reluctance to "party" with anyone Even though he wasn’t to be part of this engagement, just seeing him sent me back to my room with a headache.
As I make a name for myself, I am made privy to more of these parties and find myself in the favor of more that a few directors. Yet, I still don’t know the secret to success. I still don’t know which sexual alliances are favorable and which keep you hungry for work. So I, like you, want the dirt on who has the casting couch, then I’ll know whom I should be fucking off camera. Cause all I really want to do is put a smile on as many faces as possible, and if that means I have to do a few directly to reach a few thousand on the screen, then so be it.
-Kelly Steele
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