it’s hard to figure out whether i am recovering from “mind control” or succumbing to it
i haven’t read the whole book so i’m only guessing, but i guess thinking of the (traffick boss fiction quote) that the “cyborg torturers” are habitually engaging (“programs” similar to things described by alison miller?) maybe i’ll look at “access programs” again? maybe i’ll scrub a video 1621 :( it happened more around doing it :( i guess my “inhibition” which i suppose is actually maybe a small handful of experienced “insiders” like “guards”, “enforcers”, “controllers” with switchboards, “observers”, can get stronger than i expect or prepare for … coderman described something like this too
